From Trauma to Trust: A Night of Release
Deep Dive into Yoni Massage and Healing
Dec 14, 2025
It has been 105 days since my excision surgery for stage 4 endometriosis and my hysterectomy for adenomyosis. To say I am living without chronic pain would be a lie. However, some days feel lighter than others.
After finding small relief through physiotherapy and fascia release, I felt a pull toward something deeper. I began talking openly with my partner about exploring an inner fascia release through yoni massage. This felt like the next step in my journey of somatic healing vs talk therapy.
Finding Safety in the Body
We had discussed tantra for years, exploring it in small pieces: breath work, gentle energy, and intentional touch. As someone with deep roots in sexual, physical, and emotional abuse, surrendering to touch was never easy.
Even though I felt safe with my partner, my body needed time to believe it. While the sensations felt amazing, I had to convince my nervous system that “letting go” was safe.
Moving Beyond Insight to Lived Release
During the yoni massage, I experienced sensations I never knew existed. Some moments released extreme tension in my pelvic floor. Others activated a deep euphoria I never imagined possible. Eventually, my body reached a state of incredible relaxation.
I wasn’t just a vessel for pleasure. Instead, I was a woman becoming deeply rooted in her body and her sexual power. With the fireplace roaring, my soul ignited with a feminine fire.
Why Somatic Healing Changes Everything
I could only experience this because I was with someone I deeply trust. For the first time in my adult life, I felt safe enough to feel the parts of me that were holding onto trauma. My mind finally went quiet; my body became full of sensation. I felt powerful and connected to the universe.
The lingering energy was inspiring and wildly freeing. After years of working through trauma in various ways, the amount of release I felt deep within my core—within my fascia and nervous system—surprised me. I’m honestly shocked I didn’t cry.
Tantra isn’t about sex or orgasms. It is about a deeply spiritual release. This experience proved to me why somatic healing is so different from talk therapy; it is something you must experience firsthand in a safe, respectful environment to truly understand.
The correlation between endometriosis and stored trauma in the body is prevalent for me. For the first time after my surgery, I actually feel a significant reduction in my pain that I now realise was rooted and deeply intertwined with layers upon layers of stored trauma. The benefits of manual internal fascia work in the form of a yoni massage is extremely powerful and healing, but it takes someone being able to allow the parts of them that they keep locked away to finally flow and simply exist in an environment free of judgment and without expectation.